Condition of my Heart

As usual, the midnight gets to me.

It is hard...
to understand and accept ...
the fact that different individuals.. coming and leaving ur circle of life.
Many times it get me thinking,
how would two individuals get so attached to each other.
Having moments as if its impossible for them to live
without each other.
And then all of a sudden,
they became like strangers.

Why?
would ppl do things they don't wanna do?
Why wouldn't we follow our hearts
when it comes to feelings?
Love...
should be beyond boundaries..
shouldn't be affected by our surroundings...
the approval of others,

two hearts beating as one is what counts..
why do we need the meet up against
the society's standard?
or to satisfy the eyes of the unknowns?

We make ... mistakes all the time..
thinking that we actually love that one person.
But it didn't "feel" right...
Was our mind playing tricks on us?
Was it becuz that person just happened to heal our wounds
when we fall?

Next question..
how long would that person remain him or herself for you?


I.... feel like i'm nothing more but a healer.
Many times, I accomplished my mission..
and when the wounded were healed.
They no longer need the healer.




i dunno y am i writing these *****....
but surprisingly i'm not that emotional..

just... doing alot of thinking..

Updates Finally!

Where to begin?.. hmm..
Oh ok. Yesterday was my parent's 21st anniversary. Cool huh? lol so we decided to go KL Tower's Revolving Restaurant for buffet. Frankly, it could've been a much better place if the people who managed and designed them had some "taste". The environment was not convincing, and neither was the food. We were disappointed at some point. But well, you'll never know unless you've tried rite? Black listed if you ask me.

View from our table.

Sis and me.

Happy Anniversary Dad and Mom!!
(lovely aren't they?)

NEXT!

I've been spending alot recently. I don't know... and on my "THINGS TO BUY LIST" there's still a long way to go. Its becuz I've been purchasing things which I don't really need but.. I just like them can? lol

Item no. 1

Finally my very own "weapon" for pool! >.<

Item no.2From PDI.. looks nice wat....

Item no.3Bolster lookalike Army Bag.

what else....
oh i'm finally using my new bedsheet.

and....
and...

I've successfully collected all 7 glasses from Mc'Donalds.
lol


That's all I could think of for now.
I'm damn bored..
someone ask me out can?

The Renew of Polarpher

Didn't know why,
got tired of the previous look of my blog.
So decided to spend some time..
and make a change over.

Looking good?

Now hopefully it'll drive me to blog more.
I've been blogging alot lesser these days.
Maybe its becuz..
I don't feel like bringing up stuffs that'll
turn me down?

at the office post

Haven't been blogging in the office for a while now.
For those of you who don't know what I study..
my office is the music centre. Yes I'm a musician =)

Didn't know that reading her blog would still affect me so much.
Just one line of words are sufficient to make me sit here numbly and think..
my eyes are staring in space, my mind is only full of her.

Mood is going down down down down down down down down...



P.S: Lots of events and stuff coming.. will upload photos from singapore trip soon.

Decision to make.

I've been reading some of my old posts.
When I first started blogging.
Then I realize its been a long time since then.

I had this feeling like...

this blog has been dragging my past along.

In order to have a fresh start...

should I just delete this blog?

or at least..

have a new blog and leave this one behind?

I dunno...

YO

Sorry peeps for the lack of updates.
I've been kinda busy lately.
Due to ongoing activities.
And something new called V.U.C.

Venus Underground Club.

No, its not really a "club" that serves you
alcohol with PRs..
its actually a club me and my friends created
for hang outs and gatherings.
Basically random activities and
a good way to know people =)

Pictures of my recent activities are all in it.
Whoever who wants to join are welcomed!
VUC

Will have a detailed update soon =)

cheers

A new phase?

sorry for the lack of updates.
I've been slipping off the edge recently.
Busy, but not as emotionally "filling" as I expected.

The night makes me reminisce about alot of stuffs.
Stuffs that were not so long ago.
Feelings, that are still so real.
The mind... can be very deceitful at times.

My schedule is full of activities now.
More beneficial activities I can say.
Both for the mind and the body.
Not so sure about the soul though.

The person I was hanging on to..
whom I had so much hope in..
couldn't bare it anymore,
and .. gave up on me.

Although expected,
but honestly.. you'll never know how much it hurts until
you fall.
Sometimes you might assume that you know everything,
because you've been through it.
But .. relationships are just new and unique every time.
And when you fall again,
when you think it might hurt less this time..
you're wrong.
It'll just remind you of how painful it is again..

Another phase in life.
I do not want to hold grudge or anger against her.
I only want the good memories to remain.
I leave the rest to HIM.


Gosh,
this blog is really emo....
i wonder if my blog will be famous cuz of it...
I am no doubt .. the

Christopher a.k.a "Emo Prince"


peace ya'll